On Enlightenments and things

Hi all and I welcome you back. Sorry for the delay but I have been busy with a new job at the new "Bad Boy" store which has opened in the area and where I was fortunate to find employment after losing my job at "The Brick". Anyway that is not at all what my post is about today but it is on my own unique exerience of my enlightenment or call it my epiphany if you like. I posted this on a message board but felt it was perfect for here at my blog so I hope you enjoy. This was a reply to Nebankh and is a continuation or an encapsulization of what occurred...

Hi Nebankh ...

I never get tired of telling my story of my own enlightenment. It is a wondorous moment in my life and I really hope that all will eventually get to experience it before their departure from the material world. If I had tried to tell this story in the 17th or 18th or 19th and even the early 20th century I would have been locked away and perhaps would have even been lobotomized. It is a story that unless experienced really is difficult to believe but all who have enjoyed it have a common ground for it is beyond description ... sometimes.

My own enlightenment occured on about Oct 5th, 1998 and although I am unsure of the root cause I believe it has to do with my unique experience of travelling back to a place I had visited as a 4 year old and having it remain EXACTLY the same. Also visiting all the places I had as a child also probably stirred something deep within me and perhaps visiting "The Hunnebred" an ancient Dutch dolmen may have triggerred it as well but regardless of the cause I was fortunate to experience a life altering event.

And now to the "event" itself. It occurred in the evening at about 8:00 PM as I sat at my dining room table with Von Daniken's book and Graham's book and Ralph Ellis and also other books open on the table. It occurred in an instant and I can only describe it as thus: Forgive the capital letters but this is straight from my website and taken from my own notes made that evening:

IT WAS TRULY A ROCKY ROAD. IT WAS IF, AS DESCRIBED IN THE BIBLE (AND ELSEWHERE ), A LIGHT WENT ON IN MY HEAD. THE ONLY WAY I CAN DESCRIBE IT IS, IT WAS IF, EVERYTHING I HAD LEARNED, READ OR FELT IN MY ENTIRE LIFE SUDDENLY CAME TOGETHER, TO A SINGLE POINT IN MY BRAIN FROM THERE I COULD ACTUALLY FEEL THIS SINGLE POINT (IN MY BRAIN ) REACHING OUT TO EVERY SINGLE NERVE ENDING IN MY BRAIN, EVERY THOUGHT, CONSCIENCE AND UNCONSCIENCE, AND COULD ACTUALLY SEE THE CONNECTIONS BEING MADE. IT WAS TRULY THE MOST FRIGHTENING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE. I TRULY THOUGHT I WAS GOING MAD. I EVEN TOLD CAROL (my wife) THAT I THOUGHT I WAS. WHAT SUDDENLY STARTED THIS WOULD FILL VOLUMES AND I LOOK FORWARD TO EXPLORING THEM WITH YOU IN THE NEAR FUTURE. BUT AS THEY SAY AT THE END OF THIS TUNNEL I FINALLY SAW THE "LIGHT OF GOD."

After this moment my mind was racing at an unbelievable and uncontrolable speed and thoughts were coming to me faster than I could digest them. I was awake and writing constantly up to 22 or 23 hours a day with absolutely no fatigue. Some of my own notes I still can't decipher how I reached the conclusions I did. My face literally was shining and everyone could see the glow. It was almost, well no IT WAS biblically Moses in it's scope. It was also amazing. I suddenly could "see" things that I never even thought of before. I learned to read the moon in a matter of hours and soon could look at the moon and tell what day it was simply by the size of the crescent. It all became child's play. I even had the solution to why light acted as both a particle and a wave but thought it unimportant and did not write it down. I still hold the ideas in my head and perhaps I should post them and see what everyone thinks. To put it bluntly and not at all pompously ... I KNEW IT ALL ... EVERYTHING .... I HAD BEEN GIFTED WITH ALL THE ANSWERS !!!!

However the human mind can not cope with this and it began to overtake me. I could no longer function in todays society My mind was never on the task at hand but was continually wandering working on projects far superior to the mundane things such as selling pool tables and such. However as always in my life I had the good fortune of working for a man who was also religious and although he could not understand exactly what was happenning to me he could see it was a true epiphany and allowed me to sit in the back room and write write, write. I thank him still to this day. But it could not last, the bubble of knowing everything had to burst and burst it did one evening when after my daughter had asked me to fill an ink cartridge for her and me failing and getting ink all over my books I exploded in a fit of rage and in that instant ... IT WAS ALL GONE !

For a couple of years I lamented the fact that it was gone but since have realized that it gets released to me now in little spurts but even now at times it comes harder than I can deal with and develops into the obsessions most here are familiar with.

All my ideas and insights and revelations usually can be traced back to that singular moment in Oct of 1998 and as I have stated to some I trust, my life is now about trying to get back to that singular instant of total and I mean total knowledge for in that instant and I mean that precise intantaneous moment I do believe I actually knew it all. A gift from "God" or simply a gift from "The Unvierse" ? I do not think I will ever really know until I shed the material and return to the spiritual.

Best and I hope this makes sense to some out there.
Don Barone.